My 2010 Kind of Christmas

Amazing how Facebook applications can be so timely at giving one an advice or a message. On Christmas day, here's the message that struck me:

"On this day, God wants you to know that there are no wrongs that God cannot make right. So you've been hurt or maybe you hurt someone else. God can fix it. God may be nudging you this very moment to ask for forgiveness or be willing to forgive. Trust God, listen and act. There is no wrong that God cannot make right."

I wasn't expecting a lot of things this year. I never thought I'd fall in love the way I fell in love and break my heart two times in a row, I never thought I'd be as vocal as I am now with regards to what I think and feel is right, I never thought that I could really get into a fight with my parents, I never thought that I could actually hold grudges against people, I never thought that I could break other people's hearts. Well, God and Life itself has its own ways of surprising us, don't they?

So there are no wrongs that God cannot make right. I thought I was someone that went wrong and I needed God to fix me. It took a while before things started to make sense. My questions of why did such things happened to me were slowly being answered. And yes, it generally boiled down to FORGIVING.

I was hurt. I was angry. I was mad. The first thing that I neglected when I had my problems was my family and that started the fight between me and my parents. Eventually, He reminded me that when all else fails, my family will be the only people willing to help in making me stand once more. Slowly, God led me to the right way by asking me to let go of extra baggages and He'll be the one to take care of it. So I did forgive and tried to forget. But its not that easy.

I did what I think I ought to do but I still feel that something's still missing.

I'm a person fond of having long walks at night by myself. Its is one of my hobbies that allow me to realize things, my sort of meditation. During one of my late night walks, I realized that I did change. Is it for the better or worse?

This Christmas, I only had one wish. That is to find myself. I don't know how God will make my wish come true but I know that He will. In His perfect time and place with the perfect people for me to be around with when that time comes. He made a way so that my family will be better, He gave me someone who will make me feel loved. What more could I ask for Christmas?

Love. Laugh. Dream. Achieve. Live. I wanted the first four words to be my way of doing the last word among the five. I just want to live loving, laughing out loud, dreaming wonders and waiting for those dreams to turn to dream-come-true's and eventually take form as my achievements. But we all know that unwanted things are inevitable.

To conclude, I'm thankful and hopeful. I guess I'll take the advice of Flynn from Tron: Remove thyself from the equation. For me that's being on my own for a while and discover what is to discover in myself.

As of now, It still is a Merry Christmas. :)

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*This is an entry for this "contest". This is my answer for question number one "How did the true spirit of Christmas come alive in your Christmas? "